‘I was wondering after all these years you’d like to meet?’
I still remember writing my first blog post of 2018 – Whimsical Blossom.
I still remember the grim and dreariness of the beginning of the year as if it was just yesterday, although a year has gone by.
As I mentioned in one of my recent Instagram posts, I was in a place where I was on the verge of giving up on everything I was doing, because I couldn’t believe I gave people the power to hurt me. It altered the way I thought of myself, the way I perceived every emotion and relationship; love, patience, forgiveness, and friendship.
Although my blogpost of 2018 had me saying, rejuvenate, renew, and regrow, I found myself unable to do those myself, because I was met with far more difficult situations as the year went by. Just when I thought things couldn’t get any worse, they did. And how!
However, writing was something that strengthened me. I was able to draw courage from all the messages from people. I was able to write my heart out whenever I felt the need to. I may have hurt some emotions and feelings in the process, but it was needed. It was needed, that I bring out those words.
I look back at this year as the most difficult year so far, but that is not going to stop me from making the coming year better. The struggle has strengthened me, reinforced my beliefs, and restored my faith.
As a first step towards making this year a better one, I spent the last couple of weeks trying to rekindle some friendships that I thought didn’t hold any significance in my life. However, now my comprehension of them seems to differ and for good.
Rekindling old friendships or relationships is quite a vacillating pursuit. But it’s never impossible.
I came to realise that no matter how wrong someone has done you or how wrong you’ve been to someone, there’s no way it cannot be mended. Holding on to anger and shutting yourself off isn’t the only way out, always.
When you know you can look someone in the eye and not be enraged by their wrong doings, you know you’ve overcome. It is not easy, but it is not impossible either.
It has been a good start to the year after all.
One song that also kept me going was, Everybody Hurts by R.E.M.
Listen to it here: Everybody Hurts
Before my favourite kid could leave to pursue his dream at FTII, we met for a couple of shoots together and this was one of them. I never got a chance to post them.
I put this look together to channel my love for White + Denim – The Classic. Paired a pale blue denim with a vintage-y off white shoulder frill top.
I have been musing over Jenna Roi Long‘s Instagram feed for a while now. The hat was inspired from one of her posts.
As always, this kid creates magic with his pictures. I mean, is that even me?
- Off-white Top – Only
- Blue Denim – Levi’s
- Gladiator Sandals – Forever 21
- Sling Bag – Zara
- Hat – HnM
Pictures by AJ Aaron.
Hope you guys have a great year ahead.
Rad All Day!